Forty two

I turned 42 years old last week and in pursuit of a healthier me, my goal for this year of my life is to lose 42 pounds. I am tempted to join WW again but I have so much knowledge and resources available to me that I have a hard time justifying spending that money again.
I enrolled in our insurance at work and part of that enrollment allows me to meet with a health coach. I am hoping that she will help me stay accountable to this part of the journey.
My fatigue level has been high and I am going to try to cut out sweets this week and see if it makes me feel any better. I lean to sweet for that boost of energy and it's short lived so I grab for more. Not this week!
176 is what I will weigh when I turn 43.
That's 3.5 pounds per month, less than a pound a week.
I can do this. I have the knowledge. I have the tools. I have a reason to get this done.
One-derland by the time summer starts (June 20th) will be GREAT!

It worked...

There is chocolate in the breakroom and when I walked through I almost took a piece but I listened to myself. I really do know what the right answer is. I said to myself...chocolate or swimsuit. You see, this summer we will have access to a great waterpark and there will be people there I know and regardless of what size I am, I will go and I will wear a swimsuit. It would be great if I could be smaller though. Swimsuit season is just four months away.
Swimsuit season is just four months away. Swimsuit season is just four months away.

Shamrock Shake

Out and about running errands, enjoying a little time by myself and decided to treat myself to the first shamrock shake of the season. Should I, shouldn't I....I did but I shouldn't have. Trying to decide what I was trying to fill, what emotion made me do it. What could I have done differently? What will I do different the next time?
How about just saying no. How about saying no and then saying "I can do all things in Christ Jesus who strengthens me". How about if I would have said that I deserve better and that a smaller pair of jeans would feel much better than a shamrock shake.

What do I want more?
Sugar or smaller jeans?
Smaller jeans!

March 6th

Wow, look at all those things I committed to doing, all the ideas I had about what I needed to do to stay motivated and what have I done? I have weighed and recorded myself everyday. Today, I weigh 219.6 yesterday I weighed 217.8. I liked that much better. By the end of this week (Saturday morning) I would like to weigh 216.8 or less. There must be something to say about rewarding activity. I do that at work to encourage people. I do it with my kids to help them earn an allowance. What do I need to do to get myself going? Maybe I should print up my own chart but what will be the most important thing? If I could change one thing, what would that be?
I am disgusted with how I look. I hate that I don't have a pair of jeans that I love and I hate that the jeans I have came from Lane Bryant. I hate that I hate anything about myself. How selfish is that. I can see, I can breathe, I can hear, I can smile, I can sing, I can write, I can hold my children in my arms, I can walk, I can go up and down the stairs, I can feed myself...honestly the list can go on and on. Get over yourself already and allow yourself to be and feel blessed for all that you can do and then do all you can do.
Just be an example and role model to your kids
Just be a great mom and wife
Just be a friend to your friends
Just be smart about your choices
Just be...
How come there has to be a list? If you do all of these things or some of these things you will be successful. Look at that conflict. Make a list to show your accomplishments and keep on track...Don't make a list, just be...wtf.
Just do it Kris. What's the most important thing to you?
Being a great mom and wife is the number one thing for me. When you sign back in, write about that. Take time every day to write a little.

1/12/11 - 1/14/11

Instead of going to the J, Jacob and I shoveled the driveway together. It took about a half an hour and it was a great way to spend time together, being active without it feeling like exercise. Plus it had to have put a smile on Bill's face when he got home and saw it was a job he didn't have to do.
I have twenty minutes of exercise left for this week and I am going to head to the J before Emma needs to be picked up from school. We are also going to the ski hill tonight. I am not going to ski today but I do hope that we can go as a family still this winter. I am really scared that my arms are not strong enough to get back up if I fall and I know Bill would help me but tonight he is going to need to focus on helping the kids as this is their first ski outing.
I haven't been really very good at tracking what I have been eating and alcohol seems to be taking control of my control as it relates to making good choices. I've said it before and I will say it again...just because I made one poor choice does not mean I have to make poor choices all day.
Today I ate a Mrs. Fields white chocolate chip cookie. That does not mean I can't stay within my points for the rest of the day. I can do this!
I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

Running count...3 going on 5

I went to the J last night.

36 minutes on the treadmill at 3.6 mph.

I went 2.04 miles and burned 150 calories.

I also used some of the weight machines for my arms. Two machines 12 reps each at 30 llbs and I did 50 crunches.



I logged my food intake and still went over my daily calories. Today I am really going to focus on that and do my best to keep it in line.



I weighed myself this morning and it read 219. One more pound to go to get to my January goal. I will do this.



I know I will because I can do all things in Christ Jesus who strengthens me.

That stinketh...

Well, not writing things down and not drinking the water makes a difference at the scale. Who in the world do I think I am to feel as though I can take the weekends off. I really want to lose this weight so it can't be a part time commitment. I read over the weekend (while at the gym) that a good way to keep motivated is to reward yourself a dollar for an action you want to make a habit. I have decided I am going to reward myself $1.00 for every day I go to the gym for at least 30 minutes and $1.00 for every day that I write my food intake down and when I get enough money saved I am going for a pedicure. Yesterday I went to the gym for 33 minutes and so far today I have written it all down. The best case scenario has my toes/feet smiling on January 24th. In the interim I will take the time to add a little color myself.
I will go back to the gym today. I will continue to write down EVERYTHING I eat.

Running count of dollars toward pedicure....1 on my way to 3.