Forty two

I turned 42 years old last week and in pursuit of a healthier me, my goal for this year of my life is to lose 42 pounds. I am tempted to join WW again but I have so much knowledge and resources available to me that I have a hard time justifying spending that money again.
I enrolled in our insurance at work and part of that enrollment allows me to meet with a health coach. I am hoping that she will help me stay accountable to this part of the journey.
My fatigue level has been high and I am going to try to cut out sweets this week and see if it makes me feel any better. I lean to sweet for that boost of energy and it's short lived so I grab for more. Not this week!
176 is what I will weigh when I turn 43.
That's 3.5 pounds per month, less than a pound a week.
I can do this. I have the knowledge. I have the tools. I have a reason to get this done.
One-derland by the time summer starts (June 20th) will be GREAT!

It worked...

There is chocolate in the breakroom and when I walked through I almost took a piece but I listened to myself. I really do know what the right answer is. I said to myself...chocolate or swimsuit. You see, this summer we will have access to a great waterpark and there will be people there I know and regardless of what size I am, I will go and I will wear a swimsuit. It would be great if I could be smaller though. Swimsuit season is just four months away.
Swimsuit season is just four months away. Swimsuit season is just four months away.

Shamrock Shake

Out and about running errands, enjoying a little time by myself and decided to treat myself to the first shamrock shake of the season. Should I, shouldn't I....I did but I shouldn't have. Trying to decide what I was trying to fill, what emotion made me do it. What could I have done differently? What will I do different the next time?
How about just saying no. How about saying no and then saying "I can do all things in Christ Jesus who strengthens me". How about if I would have said that I deserve better and that a smaller pair of jeans would feel much better than a shamrock shake.

What do I want more?
Sugar or smaller jeans?
Smaller jeans!

March 6th

Wow, look at all those things I committed to doing, all the ideas I had about what I needed to do to stay motivated and what have I done? I have weighed and recorded myself everyday. Today, I weigh 219.6 yesterday I weighed 217.8. I liked that much better. By the end of this week (Saturday morning) I would like to weigh 216.8 or less. There must be something to say about rewarding activity. I do that at work to encourage people. I do it with my kids to help them earn an allowance. What do I need to do to get myself going? Maybe I should print up my own chart but what will be the most important thing? If I could change one thing, what would that be?
I am disgusted with how I look. I hate that I don't have a pair of jeans that I love and I hate that the jeans I have came from Lane Bryant. I hate that I hate anything about myself. How selfish is that. I can see, I can breathe, I can hear, I can smile, I can sing, I can write, I can hold my children in my arms, I can walk, I can go up and down the stairs, I can feed myself...honestly the list can go on and on. Get over yourself already and allow yourself to be and feel blessed for all that you can do and then do all you can do.
Just be an example and role model to your kids
Just be a great mom and wife
Just be a friend to your friends
Just be smart about your choices
Just be...
How come there has to be a list? If you do all of these things or some of these things you will be successful. Look at that conflict. Make a list to show your accomplishments and keep on track...Don't make a list, just be...wtf.
Just do it Kris. What's the most important thing to you?
Being a great mom and wife is the number one thing for me. When you sign back in, write about that. Take time every day to write a little.